From time to time, I wonder,

What is that I ache for!

Is it health, wealth or happiness, 

In this mortal journey to find purpose.

Listening to my heart, I went forth,

To make a difference, be the change.

Wanting to be at the wheel by myself,

I ended up in a hamster wheel!

No courage to fight mediocrity,

Succumbed to the typical social norms,

The cowardly self recoiled within,

Retreating into a cocoon of solitude!

Inside, my heart longed for peace,

For peace was one thing so scarce.

Faked a smile, to avoid the stares,

But my soul staggered - I felt lost!

Emotionally numb, the spark inside died,

Every time I settled for acceptance.

Sobbed in silence, my grief-stricken soul,

Shattered and hardened, time and again!

Expectations had weighed me down,

I was a feather, a pappus of dandelion,

Wandering freely, happily floating away,

In the winds of ease and tranquility!

No longer, I yearn for happiness,

For true joy is a farce, a fantasy!

Yet, my life I hold dear, I sail ahead,

Oblivion or eternity, whatever awaits!

Everyone wants to belong, they say,

Every time I tried, I broke inside.

I don't belong anywhere, I realize,

For I am but a lonely wanderer!